tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-45214431504169181682024-02-08T02:51:49.728-08:00Khhast prays: Prayers of an evolving spiritualitykhhasthttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17439677129073171577noreply@blogger.comBlogger16125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4521443150416918168.post-9925672940150960462014-08-18T16:24:00.002-07:002014-08-18T16:24:25.782-07:00What to write?<br />
Here with nothing on my page,<br />
Nothing on my mind,<br />
But something weighs me down.<br />
<br />
You have weight,<br />
But you also bring peace.<br />
I do not have peace in this.<br />
<br />
I ask you questions,<br />
And you answer with a laugh,<br />
Giving the same answer<br />
You always give.<br />
<br />
Nothing has changed.<br />
Yet sometimes it seems everything has.<br />
As if someone took the world<br />
And shook it.<br />
<br />
I yearn to do great things,<br />
But you say "just be."<br />
Where are your miracles there?<br />
But just to be<br />
is a miracle.<br />
<br />
And you remind me with a laugh.<br />
<br />
And your peace<br />
washes over me again.khhasthttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17439677129073171577noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4521443150416918168.post-39801665203345763582014-05-11T16:51:00.003-07:002014-05-11T16:51:46.699-07:00LabelsSometimes<br />I don't know how to pray,<br />but you hear me anyway<br /><br />Whether I say God-in-heaven,<br />or God-right-here-with-me,<br />in this little space,<br />or filling the expanse of the universe.<br /><br />It is still you,<br />maybe just with a different label,<br />a different focus from my end,<br />but still looking at you.<br /><br />Does the object of our gaze change<br />just because we view<br />with the naked eye<br />and then through a telescope?<br /><br />If we focus on<br />the grain of the bark,<br />the veins in the leaf,<br />is it any less a tree?<br /><br />The very name "God"<br />that we give you<br />is just a label<br />for something we cannot comprehend.<br /><br />But whichever label we choose<br />does not change You,<br />just our view,<br />and us.khhasthttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17439677129073171577noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4521443150416918168.post-17889713208726298912013-06-18T20:34:00.000-07:002013-06-18T20:34:03.752-07:00I asked<br />
for more of You<br />
in my life.<br />
<br />
And rather than<br />
something from outside<br />
coming upon me,<br />
I felt a welling up<br />
of You<br />
from within.<br />
<br />
Bubbling up<br />
from the depths<br />
within me<br />
You come.khhasthttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17439677129073171577noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4521443150416918168.post-62878022659995319972013-06-18T20:32:00.001-07:002013-06-18T20:32:50.559-07:00Mother God,<br />
Why is it easier<br />
to approach you<br />
in the warm darkness<br />
of deep night,<br />
when streetlights<br />
flicker out<br />
and the moon has set?khhasthttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17439677129073171577noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4521443150416918168.post-89742415158680593712013-06-12T15:46:00.002-07:002013-06-12T15:46:15.234-07:00Forgive me<br />
for forgetting<br />
to turn to You.<br />
<br />
For wanting to escape<br />
into the darkness<br />
and hide.<br />
<br />
<br />I have been reminded<br />
that you hold all things.<br />
<br />That the warm darkness<br />
is of You.<br />
<br />
Like a womb,<br />
warm and dark.<br />
A place I can simply be<br />
until I am ready<br />
to emerge into the light.<br />
<br />
<br />
And so<br />
I turn to you,<br />
to your warm<br />
all-encompassing arms,<br />
large enough to block the light,<br />
and fully contain me<br />
while I hide.<br />
<br />
I hide in Your arms.khhasthttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17439677129073171577noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4521443150416918168.post-89228021433414434512013-06-02T12:54:00.003-07:002013-06-02T12:54:57.491-07:00StirringFeathery leaves<br />
patterned against the sky.<br />
A new day is dawning.<br />
<br />
The babe in my lap<br />
squirms, protesting,<br />
But You are here.<br />
<br />
<br />
Can she see you?<br />
Are you a familiar face?<br />
<br />
I seem to be full of questions<br />
this morning.<br />
Woken too early<br />
and not yet fed.<br />
<br />
The wind rises,<br />
ruffling the leaves,<br />
as my baby also<br />
ruffles me<br />
<br />
<br />
and I struggle to grasp<br />
the peace and tranquility<br />
of the early morn<br />
as the busyness of a young family<br />
stirs. khhasthttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17439677129073171577noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4521443150416918168.post-37960477719368604662013-06-02T12:37:00.001-07:002013-06-02T12:37:58.760-07:00Grandmother God,<br />
Crone Goddess?<br />
(Let me try that one on.)<br />
<br />
I miss my grandmother.<br />
She was an amazing pray-er.<br />
<br />
Do her prayers stop with her?<br />
Or do they continue on?<br />
Does the burden fall to us instead?<br />
<br />
I named my daughter<br />
in her spirit,<br />
To honour her.<br />
My granny died<br />
while I was pregnant,<br />
and never got to meet<br />
this little one.<br />
<br />
But I have great memories<br />
Of her with my other daughter<br />
and with me.<br />
<br />
Her spirit lives on<br />
in us,<br />
her children<br />
and grandchildren.<br />
<br />
But her prayers?<br />
I don't know. khhasthttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17439677129073171577noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4521443150416918168.post-40235129940395362002013-05-21T14:16:00.002-07:002013-05-21T14:16:48.207-07:00It's a grey day today<br />
and I'm feeling<br />
grey as well.<br />
<br />
Just as well I know<br />
that You<br />
are in the grey too.<br />
<br />
Not just the bright and happy<br />
or black moments of despair.<br />
<br />
You are here in the middling<br />
the grey<br />
the dull<br />
the commonplace.<br />
<br />
But you are not just grey<br />
in the grey.<br />
You bring new light,<br />
new colour,<br />
new sound and texture.<br />
The crunch of autumn leaves,<br />
the smell of a fresh day.<br />
<br />
There is more<br />
than just grey to today.<br />
Because You<br />
are in today as well.khhasthttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17439677129073171577noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4521443150416918168.post-44208477723532995052013-05-21T00:30:00.000-07:002013-05-21T00:30:19.761-07:00How good it was<br />
to worship a feminine god<br />
in corporate worship.<br />
<br />
To replace He<br />
with She<br />
Lord<br />
with God<br />
<br />
I struggled a little<br />
when I hit<br />
Father, Spirit, Son<br />
but Mother works<br />
in place of Father<br />
and the rest remain true<br />
<br />
fighting<br />
for the feminine side<br />
a glimpse<br />
into otherkhhasthttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17439677129073171577noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4521443150416918168.post-69248327012915316412013-05-15T15:28:00.001-07:002013-05-15T15:28:05.403-07:00God,<br />
You have given me<br />
this beautiful day<br />
to make much of.<br />
<br />
Yet I feel like I am<br />
wasting it,<br />
letting it slip away<br />
through my fingers.<br />
<br />
I have so much to do,<br />
yet I can't seem to get it done<br />
some days<br />
today.<br />
<br />
I am sore today<br />
it does not help me focus<br />
it does not help me work<br />
<br />
Perhaps I could focus on you instead?<br />
<br />
Though the work needs doing<br />
perhaps less pressure<br />
on myself<br />
<br />
It is not urgent<br />
though it needs doing,<br />
but all in its own time<br />
<br />
Maybe today needs to be<br />
taken a little slower<br />
restful awareness<br />
focused on the day progressing<br />
less on the rush<br />
<br />
...<br />
<br />
Help me to work<br />
despite the soreness,<br />
not through the soreness,<br />
but around it.<br />
<br />
To keep getting things done,<br />
crossing them off my list,<br />
my never-ending list.<br />
<br />
Progress,<br />
but in its own time,<br />
in Your time.<br />
<br />khhasthttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17439677129073171577noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4521443150416918168.post-91875943235678442522013-05-12T16:49:00.000-07:002013-05-12T16:49:52.386-07:00Do I address you as a parent?<br />
Or a god?<br />
Is one too personal?<br />
The other too distal?<br />
<br />
I want to feel you close,<br />
but not without respecting<br />
Your vast greatness.<br />
<br />
<br />khhasthttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17439677129073171577noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4521443150416918168.post-11802897844255786902013-05-12T15:30:00.002-07:002013-05-12T15:30:37.854-07:00Mother,<br />
I have a friend<br />
who needs your help.<br />
Will you be with him?<br />
Loving and supporting him?khhasthttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17439677129073171577noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4521443150416918168.post-8309954949890036972013-05-02T14:19:00.002-07:002013-05-02T14:19:46.980-07:00Mother God,<br />
how good it is to know<br />
that in the wee small hours<br />
when anxieties rise<br />
you are awake too<br />
<br />
and I can rest in your arms.khhasthttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17439677129073171577noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4521443150416918168.post-50978838906364236852013-05-01T01:29:00.001-07:002013-05-01T01:29:19.816-07:00Mother-Father-God<br />
You have given me talents<br />
and abilities<br />
<br />
Help me to push through<br />
the anxieties<br />
and use them<br />
fully.<br />
<br />
Sometimes<br />
keeping things simple<br />
helps,<br />
<br />
but sometimes<br />
there are so many things<br />
that need doing<br />
need attention<br />
need thinking about<br />
that I get lost<br />
and anxious<br />
and lose my focus on You<br />
<br />
Simple.<br />
Keep it simple.<br />
One thing at a time,<br />
with focus on doing it well<br />
giving glory to the talent-giver,<br />
not focused on the talents-in-action.<br />
<br />
Help me<br />
to keep you in focus,<br />
and the anxieties not,<br />
to keep pushing through<br />
my own worries<br />
into Your arms. khhasthttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17439677129073171577noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4521443150416918168.post-67121058356057272372013-04-29T00:49:00.001-07:002013-04-29T00:49:22.085-07:00Mother God,<br />
You have blessed me<br />
with new gifts to explore,<br />
gifted me<br />
with new horizons to chase.<br />
<br />
But I find myself<br />
seeking out familiar corners,<br />
safe cushions to hide in.<br />
<br />
Help me to emerge<br />
into the new,<br />
into the open areas<br />
You are inviting me into.<br />
<br />
Help me to explore<br />
what You are offering,<br />
the things You know<br />
will help me grow into my future.khhasthttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17439677129073171577noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4521443150416918168.post-87896211948018167472013-04-28T14:16:00.001-07:002013-04-28T14:16:40.500-07:00Mother God<br />
of open spaces<br />
and closed corners<br />
<br />
of big wide dreams<br />
and tiny hopes<br />
<br />
When we're feeling small<br />
in spaces too large<br />
<br />
or squashed into spaces<br />
that no longer fit<br />
<br />
You are with us.<br />
<br />
You ground us<br />
<br />
and we can rest<br />
in your loving arms<br />
<br />
<br />khhasthttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17439677129073171577noreply@blogger.com0